the ANGER

I am mad. I'm mad that I was broken up with. I honestly don't want to get back together with him and I don't like him in that way at all anymore but I miss being held and I miss kissing but I want it to be with someone I really like. 
I can like people again and I'm so happy because for about a month I just didn't and I was scared I would never feel that way again. Now we're friends but I'm still so I dunno.

I mean I want to be friends but sometimes he still treats me like dirt. I hate it. I feel bad complaining about it though. I mean come on. I'm not his girlfriend. But I am his friend and I do know I'm still important to him.
But he is dating someone and maybe I'm just jealous that I'm still single and he's not.

I think that's it actually.

Wow.

I figured out why i was mad in the middle of my blog.

I kind of hate him for that and I feel bad about it but I can't really help it right now. I also hate his girlfriend. She's blond and tall and pretty and it makes me feel like worthless. Like he's dating the girl who I am the opposite of. It just makes me feel bad. I think people get it though. Also she has boobs and I'm flat. >:{

But I'll just work with what I got.
I know I'm going to find someone who likes me how I am so I shouldn't worry about looks...but it still bothers me.

I'm sorry all my blogs are well bad.

I'm not editing them besides spell check, for now they're just to let my feelings out.
Later I might actually try to connect to other people.
But for now this is just to relieve anger and stress.
I think this is going to help.

I kind of hate his friends too, but that is because they're inmature and with him I love him (as a friend) so I can look past that but he just hangs out with such....teenyboppers.

I saw some of them the other day and they just auggggh they littered and me and my other friend picked up their stupid shit.

I was just so...angry.

WELL THIS IS THE ANGER BLOG.

Anyway....

I'm jealous of him.

I hate his girlfriend for being better then me.

His friends are dumb asses.

I know I seem like a horrible person right now but well I am. I'm not in a very good place.

I'm sorry for saying mean things.

I am jealous but i'll get over it and then we can be legit friends and I'll tell you thanks for putting up with me all these years.

I'm sorry, I don't hate you I'm just insecure and I shouldn't be. You're not better then me just different and you're a person too so I shouldn't put you on a pedestal.

 His friends are dumb asses but it's because they're a teenager and every teen is a dumb ass. I was too just a while ago. You grow out of it and I shouldn't judge. EVERYONE has been there.

I feel better....